Innside Earth – Hell or Healing?

Inside a Swiss Mountain at Rosenlaui

When you think of planet Earth; do you see the oceans and the continents? The air? I guess you do.

But are you aware of the inner of the planet? The part of Earth that is hidden, that we can’t see, nor visit. I must admit that I’ve almost entirely related to Earth’s surface and hardly ever conceiving it as the massive globe it is.

A Sunday evening a few weeks ago during one of our online Wider Embraces session we took the perspective as the Group. Then we felt a pull downwards, and we sunk into the inner of our planet, into the magma.

It’s a surprisingly interesting perspective, and we’ve been exploring it since. It’s also one of the most healing places we’ve been to, both physically and psychologically. We don’t experience any heat, but a dense, slow-moving ocean of melted rock, very comfortable. Our bodies relaxing on a deep level and our unexamined fears of the underworld dissolving.

My Atoms Feel at Home here

The atoms in my body know this place, they’ve been here before during their 4,5 billion long planetary journeys. When the Earth formed, its inside and outside shifted in intense volcanic activity for the first half billion years.

Yesterday we descended all the way to the centre of the planet. Strange place with upward all the way around. Took a while to wrap my head around, though my body had no problem to rest here. Not being stretched between up and down, but gently embraces from all directions.

So on an atomic level, this place deep inside the planet is home, but as biological beings, we wouldn’t survive here a millisecond. We are surface beings, with a planetary body.

Not a Trace of Hell

But where is Hell? We looked around, but couldn’t find it, not a trace of evil creatures lurking below the surface. No trolls, no eternal fire, no shadows or dark impulses. Only peace.

The downward direction is almost always considered bad and wrong in our languages and our myths. As humanity, we are walking on the ground, imagining that beneath our feet there is hell and above us is heaven. And even if we are secular and don’t buy into the stories, it’s part of our collective subconscious, and it makes us disconnected from Earth. Aiming for Mars and the stars, instead of feeling our deep bonds with this planet.

For me, this journey into the inner of our planet has been healing and grounding. There is nothing between me and the massive body of Earth. I belong here, unconditionally.

Rest in Your Wider Embraces

Belonging

Enjoy the feeling of belonging to some of your wider Embraces. I’ve just published a Guided Embrace:

  • Rest in the Embrace of our physical Universe; a place where there is nothing to do, think or feel.
  • Rest in the Embrace of our planetary family tree; feel your deep roots and connectedness with all life.
  • Rest in the Embrace of our global ecosystem; softly sway in the great web of all your relations.
  • Integrate everything in the Embrace of me; holding everything that is me, unconditionally.

Join us online

In this guided Embraces I focus on the belonging side of the Wider Embraces. The shift in perspective, when we lean out and become the Embrace, is better done live together. You are welcome to join one of our online sessions. Send me an e-mail, and I’ll put you on the list – stina@widerembraces.org.

Listen to the Guided Embrace in English or Swedish

View and Subscribe on Youtube

I’ve also published these Guided Embraces on Youtube, and I will post a lot more videos in the coming months, so please check out the Wider Embraces Youtube channel and subscribe!

The Irrepressible Life Force

The Irrepressible Lifeforce – Alder tree on the beach of Fulltofta, frozen lake

We all love the gifts of growth and development:
– Longer, healthier lives!
– Surviving kids!
– Food from all over the world, year round!
– Better, bigger houses with tap water and washing machine!
– Communication via radio, TV, computer, mobile phone!
– Travelling across the globe!
– Knowledge and entertainment 24-7!

Who wants to limit any of this for oneself?
Or tell someone else to limit their life?
Or tell the poor not to dream about it?

Though we know that we can’t have limitless growth on a finite planet and we consume 1.2 planets today, and the human population is growing.

The List of Suspects

To handle the downsides of our progress, we have a long list of suspects to blame:
– The rich and the capitalist system.
– Colonialism and the western civilisation.
– Men and the patriarchy.
– The rational mind and technology.

Pointing the finger, not sensing the underlying force in all of us.

The Irrepressible Life Force

Take a deep breath and feel that you are a part of life on Earth, all the way back to the cell 3,7 billion years ago, from which all life on Earth has sprung, including you.

Life on Earth is the story of the irrepressible life force, exploiting every possible niche. Our huge family tree lives in the oceans and lakes, in the air, on the plains, in the mountains, it lives inside hard rocks, cold ice, and hot springs.

Our family tree has gone through at least five mass extinctions but always got back and formed new species and new diverse and complex ecosystems. Though, to recover after a mass extinction event, takes five to thirty million years, depending on the scale of the crash. It’s not a quick fix, but a persistent struggle to keep on living and change.

The Archetype of Planet Earth

If you put your feet down into the warm, slow-moving magma inside the Earth and feel the heart of the planet – you will sense the origin of the life force that is flourishing on its surface. The Force of Life is the archetype of planet Earth. We all live inside this force, and we are an expression of it.

The Irrepressible Lifeforce – Alder tree on the beach of Fulltofta, high water

Owning it – No Separation

We, as humanity, are the most potent and powerful expression of this life force. And there is nothing strong enough to counter-balance us, no outer borders that can hold us. Other than a brake-down of the biosphere, what we called our support system. Our mighty strength is our curse.

It’s about time to own the irrepressible life force in myself.
Feel it’s beauty and strength – It gave birth to me and everything I love.
Feel it’s limitless growth – It’s destroying me and everything I love.

There is no separation. Nothing outside me to point the finger at and blame.

When I am one with our Planetary Life Force – I can start to feel into how I might self-limit, as the Embrace of all of us.

Self Limitation – Next blog post

My next blog post will be about outer borders, inner structures, and self-limitation. About going from being one cell to being multi-cell, to embracing wider and wider structures.

But for now; embrace and own that expanding and exploiting force.
Be it, limitlessly!

 

The Irrepressible Lifeforce – Alder tree on the beach of Fulltofta, low water

All photos of the same alder tree at lake Ringsjön in Fulltofta. The tree lives through winter, high water and low water. Notable is also the reed and other plants that have started to grow in the sand due to this summers extream low water.
Photos by Stina Deurell.

To-do-lists, Judgement and Alignment

to-do-list

Yesterday was one of these days when I was not happy with myself. I had grand plans for what to accomplish during the day. But unfortunately, in the early afternoon, I refused to obey and started to watch TV instead. Blind to all to-do-lists.

In the evening I reflected on my day, and my life, and asked why it’s so hard to make myself do what I think I should do. The answer came almost immediately; I’m judging myself all the time, whatever I do, it’s not enough. I don’t measure up to what I expect of myself, I lose energy, I try to push myself for a while, and then I run away into some distraction.

This Sunday was no exception, and I know I’m not alone in this behaviour. This is how we live our modern lives, pushing and judging, planning for the future and condemning that we didn’t achieve everything. Reducing the present moment to a spot where we check off items from The List. Working hard so the future will be without guilt. But that will never happen, the list is filling itself up all the time. And the harder I judge me, the harder I judge others. Why should I not?

 

There is a side of me that exists only now, unconditionally. It’s the Embrace of me. I can lean out into that Embrace and hold this human being, with all her struggles and shortcomings. I rest in the Embrace of me, relaxing and getting nurtured.

The Embrace of me is holding the conditional me, unconditionally.
The Embrace of me being outside time, I’m acting inside time.
Together we are a complete team.

To let go of the Plans and the Judging feels like taking off an old winter coat.
It’s scary, and I’m afraid of becoming naked and vulnerable.
Who is going to steer me if the To-Do-List don’t?
Who is going to make me work if the Future doesn’t judge me?
How will Time move forward if I don’t fill it with meaningless escape?

It’s not about living in the now, not caring about tomorrow.
It’s about being informed by that which is outside time.
And by that which is inside time.
Aligning myself with all my wider Embraces.
Letting action arise in this human being.

 

I did check my to-do-list this morning, and one thing had to be done today, so I marked that one; calling my dad on his birthday. Then I started my day doing things when they arose. Being still now and then. And guess what, this was a very productive and happy day!

No fighting with myself.

I am Life of Sun and Planet

Sun and Planet

As life on Earth, I’m Embraced by our Planet but just as much by the Sun.

Our Star is not a distant energy source, but an integrated part of life on Earth.

Obviously!

But I have never experienced it so clearly, as during tonight’s Wider Embraces session.

Breathing solar energy and planetary oxygen
in the dark blue evening sky