One Life, Many Deaths

All life on Earth is the result of one cell dividing, transforming and merging for almost four billion years; forming all the species on the planet, our immense family tree.

There is no beginning of my life, other than that first cell.
The egg from my mother was alive. The sperm from my father was alive.
They merged and formed something new, but life was there all the time.

Death is always personal and has always been.
Cells and bodies die, cease to exist; while life reuses all the parts.

Only one life,
but many deaths

2019-07-04 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Biological, Body, Cell, Life

The Earth in the Middle of the Group

After two intense days together exploring 2waveFuture, we sat down for our final Wider Embraces session.

We leaned out into the Embrace of the Group, experiencing a calm density in the beginning and then a shift into a darker place. Going back and forth between being in that space and being that space.

As the guide, I got the impulse to invite planet Earth into the Embrace of our Group. And it was there. Spinning fast.

After a while, we felt energy being pulled out of our hands, like in a traditional healing session.
The spinning slowed down, and the feeling became lighter.

Most of us have been working with energy healing, and we know the feeling when the client starts to draw energy. It’s not us doing it; it’s a need that is drinking an opportunity.

Up until now, we have kept the size of the Embraces reflecting the material reality. Our group is smaller than the planet, so we are part of the Embrace of the Planet, not the other way around. I still think that is a great principal in general, but a group of humans can move beyond space and time. We can use intention and imagination, and we have agency.

Being the Embrace of planet Earth, holding all of me, unconditionally, is one quality.
Being the Embrace of the Group, holding planet Earth, intentionally, is another quality, with another potential.

Open mind, open heart
Being there for our Planet
No idea about the outcome

2019-06-02 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Alignment, Planet Earth

A Dense Brake

The Embrace of the Group was very calm yesterday. Dense in a good way. No hint of moving in any direction. So we just hung out there. Being. Feeling our bodies and minds relax.

Some thoughts crossed my mind then and have continued to pop up.
The pace of doing has increased, and we now live stressful lives with production and consumption at full speed. We try to fix the climate and the environment by doing MORE; producing more sustainable energy, more electric cars, more high-speed trains, more LED-lamps and why not try some global geo-engineering to shield off the sun?

In my opinion, this is to move faster in the direction that is killing life on the planet. It’s more yang energy, more expansion, more doing. What we need is yin-energy, letting go, being.

In giving up, lays a path forward.

2019-05-27 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Climate, Direction, Second Wave

Dancing the Ecological Web – The Tree and the Fungi

We danced the relations between species in an ecosystem.

Åse was a tree, and I was the fungi decomposing her fallen leaves.
Moving together in a slow and connected dance.

She and her seedlings needed me to create soil for them.
When the seedlings grew, I could spread my hyphens further away.

Expanding and moving together.
No life without the other.

No idea about freedom.

2019-05-14 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
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Eurasia – Where I can Walk Around

We became aware of our wast continent; Eurasia. The landmass we are living on. Living in its north-west corner.

As cultural beings, our minds are turned towards the Atlantic; Asia is far away, America is close.

But I can walk or bike to China, India and Irak.
I can go by train from the railway station in my village to the other side of the continent.

The wolfs and birds roam across the continent, the plants too, but slow.

The deep divide between Europe, the Middle East and Asia is cultural, not biological and geographical.

An amazing, new feeling of belonging to our whole continent, not only to the Scandinavian peninsula or the European corner but to all of it. Wow, my home got broader and more diverse.

2019-05-14 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Biological, Physical, Planet Earth

Embraces and Centre Poles

This Sunday evening we leaned out into a diverse, newly formed group we are members of. As expected we couldn’t find an Embrace of the Group. But we found a centre pole in the middle with some Embraces circling around it and on its side.

The centre pole turned out to be the founder, and the shape was one of integrity.

Yesterday we explored this shape further.

Leaning out into the Embrace of me, being the Embrace.
Shifting into the form of its centre pole.
Huge difference; standing firmly in the world.

Leaning out into the Embrace of the Group, being the Embrace.
Shifting into the form of its centre pole.
Powerful to be an upright oval together.

Leaning out into the Embrace of the Planet, being the Embrace.
Shifting into being the Earth’s axis.

Wow, that was something. I’m visible. Stretching out through the North and South poles.
I am reaching out into the Solar system, into the Galaxy and the Universe.
I’m a statement.

2019-05-02 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
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Embryogenesis – Growth and Form

I am a fertilised egg in the middle of the circle.
All I have to do is divide and grow, divide and grow, divide and grow …
And I do, and it’s lovely to be lifeforce.

What cells will turn into nerves, brain, eyes, lungs, kidneys, muscles, skin;
Is not my job. I don’t have a plan, only potential.

The swirling blankets; the morphic fields, danced by my friends,
are the patterns that have been repeated billion of times.
The patterns now forming me.

 

2019-04-23 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Biological, Human body

Without Time – I am the Planet

The atoms that make up my body right now
have been part of this planet for billions of years.

They have been everywhere;
in the oceans, in the air, on land and deep down in the crust.

Without time
I am the whole planet
Now

2019-04-23 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Physical, Planet Earth

Letting Healing Happen

Being the Embrace of Humanity.
Holding everything that is me, unconditionally.
Slightly leaning inwards.

Letting the subtle energy flow within all of me.
Doing its healing work.
Me doing nothing.
Just not holding it back.

Being the Embrace of the Biosphere …

Being the Embrace of me, this human being …

2019-04-08 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Healing, Unconditionally

Cell Division and Being Me

Yesterday we played with the transition from being only procaryote cells on Earth to become eucaryote cells. And then going from being only single cell organisms, to become multicell beings. Links below.

The most striking insight I got was when we were one cell (four ladies under one blanket), and we made a cell division and became two cells (two times two ladies under two blankets). Suddenly what was Me was just half Me! The other half was not Me anymore — strange feeling.

A more subtle insight came when we formed a multicell organism (four ladies under one blanket each, under one joint blanket). The conflict between freedom and security started here, and it’s still around. As a cell in a multicell organism, I’m both a Me and a part of the larger Me. I have less freedom as the single cell, but more power and abilities as the multicell. It’s the same all the way up and down.

The same type of experience repeated itself, at the end of our meeting, when we leaned out into the Embrace of the Group. For a moment, I was only the Embrace of the Group, the personal perspective was totally gone. It was a bit scary to lose myself so much. Normally I have a double or a triple view; the personal Me, the Guide and the Embrace.

How we think complex cells evolved – Adam Jacobson
The Origin Of Multi-Cellular Life Start at 4.50

2019-04-01 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Cell, Consciousness, Subjectivity