Cell Division and Being Me

Yesterday we played with the transition from being only procaryote cells on Earth to become eucaryote cells. And then going from being only single cell organisms, to become multicell beings. Links below.

The most striking insight I got was when we were one cell (four ladies under one blanket), and we made a cell division and became two cells (two times two ladies under two blankets). Suddenly what was Me was just half Me! The other half was not Me anymore — strange feeling.

A more subtle insight came when we formed a multicell organism (four ladies under one blanket each, under one joint blanket). The conflict between freedom and security started here, and it’s still around. As a cell in a multicell organism, I’m both a Me and a part of the larger Me. I have less freedom as the single cell, but more power and abilities as the multicell. It’s the same all the way up and down.

The same type of experience repeated itself, at the end of our meeting, when we leaned out into the Embrace of the Group. For a moment, I was only the Embrace of the Group, the personal perspective was totally gone. It was a bit scary to lose myself so much. Normally I have a double or a triple view; the personal Me, the Guide and the Embrace.

How we think complex cells evolved – Adam Jacobson
The Origin Of Multi-Cellular Life Start at 4.50

2019-04-01 by Stina Deurell
The Ladies
Tags: Cell, Consciousness, Subjectivity

My Interior is Private

This morning, when I identified as the Embrace of me, this human being, I wondered why all my thoughts, memories and emotions are invisible to the Embrace of the Biosphere, or any other of my wider Embrace.

When I take the perspective as Humanity, I’m embracing all human beings and all their interactions, but I’m not concerned with their personal emotions and thoughts. It’s all about how it is to be me, the Embrace of Humanity.

I love this asymmetric blindness.
I have access to the subjectivity of what I belong to, though in low resolution.
I don’t have access to the subjectivity of my parts.

2018-11-26 by Stina Deurell
Stina by herself
Tags: Consciousness, Mind, Subjectivity